wanted to start this post telling a little about my return to the city in mid-January this year, but suddenly it occurred to me that really just a return to the city was experiencing a clear return to God .
In February last year, I returned from my intensive course in Solonia, find a changed city, free of problems, with friendly people and I find myself with a clear sense of unity with all people and things that I around. My mind discerned incredibly well with what was true and what belonged to the illusion, and was quite ready to release everyone. But somehow that feeling fell into decay, think more, I was bored at any place that was. I would not want to speculate, but I imagine my state of peace acquainted with being in the jungle, surrounded by people who talked about the same as me and I felt the family. In contrast, ESAB in a city, studying computer science, with work, with tests that show, in a routine, well ... lots of things that I had forgotten.
So I started falling back into conflict, in the Pensieve, in fear. And I saw my girlfriend refect in my studies, my friends, whatever. It was really disconcerting to come from a state of total peace and suddenly find that I no longer felt the Son of God living on earth as in heaven, but the devil's son living an endless nightmare. I can not complain of the time, had amazing times, but inevitably my status assessed at the time and could tell that was not my best year.
The memory of the intensive course and became distant and was not, as in 2004 he had a group in Santa Monica, people to share in order to recover the long-awaited peace. Stop thinking you did something so I had to fight, rather than a daily condition.
For the month of September, things took a turn quite interesting. I returned to the Gran Sabana to meet facilitators and coordinators of learning to be, I find that it was the most dramatic and where I met people I hope to keep in touch with them. It surprised me how to be there, I regained my peace as if nothing had happened for months and months.
From September to December, things improved considerably. I do not remember how, but I felt really improved, at least were quite interesting in the days of creating my new company in conjunction with joaquín: Pixelsoft. As of December the picture was different, had promised to return Solonia end of the month, and in many ways I got the signal that left for these courses. This time I go with Eliana, who first go to the Gran Sabana.
What happened there definitely is for another blog entry. But in short opportunity after opportunity to heal my world, since I arrived until I left. And best of all: total disosición had to use those oortunidades.
returned under circumstances of fear and conflict, but with the provision of delivering all the Holy Spirit, which in effect did, which was gradually paving my way back. Each day was very intense because dance between two extremes, one of intense fear and one of absolute peace. When she thought she had been a fear back in a different form, like a virus indestructible, but to my own surprise almost automatically decided to stop thinking and seek to resolve my conflict.
My requests were heard and it seems to bring new opportunities in the world to see. The most Surprise yourself for me was getting to talk to my mom about this and she was completely receptive to the message he wanted to convey, when not long ago I saw as the worst person in my life to get close to talk about it.
And magically, more and more opportunities to shed tears on many occasions, but always always ended with a smile on my face. Thank God for bringing me back, take me back, thanks for your infinite love.
Today, being alone, writing this last line with the certainty that where love is present, fear can not be.
In February last year, I returned from my intensive course in Solonia, find a changed city, free of problems, with friendly people and I find myself with a clear sense of unity with all people and things that I around. My mind discerned incredibly well with what was true and what belonged to the illusion, and was quite ready to release everyone. But somehow that feeling fell into decay, think more, I was bored at any place that was. I would not want to speculate, but I imagine my state of peace acquainted with being in the jungle, surrounded by people who talked about the same as me and I felt the family. In contrast, ESAB in a city, studying computer science, with work, with tests that show, in a routine, well ... lots of things that I had forgotten.
So I started falling back into conflict, in the Pensieve, in fear. And I saw my girlfriend refect in my studies, my friends, whatever. It was really disconcerting to come from a state of total peace and suddenly find that I no longer felt the Son of God living on earth as in heaven, but the devil's son living an endless nightmare. I can not complain of the time, had amazing times, but inevitably my status assessed at the time and could tell that was not my best year.
The memory of the intensive course and became distant and was not, as in 2004 he had a group in Santa Monica, people to share in order to recover the long-awaited peace. Stop thinking you did something so I had to fight, rather than a daily condition.
For the month of September, things took a turn quite interesting. I returned to the Gran Sabana to meet facilitators and coordinators of learning to be, I find that it was the most dramatic and where I met people I hope to keep in touch with them. It surprised me how to be there, I regained my peace as if nothing had happened for months and months.
From September to December, things improved considerably. I do not remember how, but I felt really improved, at least were quite interesting in the days of creating my new company in conjunction with joaquín: Pixelsoft. As of December the picture was different, had promised to return Solonia end of the month, and in many ways I got the signal that left for these courses. This time I go with Eliana, who first go to the Gran Sabana.
What happened there definitely is for another blog entry. But in short opportunity after opportunity to heal my world, since I arrived until I left. And best of all: total disosición had to use those oortunidades.
returned under circumstances of fear and conflict, but with the provision of delivering all the Holy Spirit, which in effect did, which was gradually paving my way back. Each day was very intense because dance between two extremes, one of intense fear and one of absolute peace. When she thought she had been a fear back in a different form, like a virus indestructible, but to my own surprise almost automatically decided to stop thinking and seek to resolve my conflict.
My requests were heard and it seems to bring new opportunities in the world to see. The most Surprise yourself for me was getting to talk to my mom about this and she was completely receptive to the message he wanted to convey, when not long ago I saw as the worst person in my life to get close to talk about it.
And magically, more and more opportunities to shed tears on many occasions, but always always ended with a smile on my face. Thank God for bringing me back, take me back, thanks for your infinite love.
Today, being alone, writing this last line with the certainty that where love is present, fear can not be.
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